| Eat.Pray.Love............Forgive. |
[Oct. 8th, 2010|04:54 pm] |
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You know there's just something about human beings. We blame ourselves, and others (mostly) for the things that happen and didn't happen. Mostly to convince ourselves that we're not the root of the problem, other times just to pick a fight just cause there's nothing better to do and you do deserve to be blamed for well....forgetting to put the toilet seat back down after using 2years ago.
But really amidst all the avoiding and hiding and fighting, was there ever really a problem or was it just that 'something' that none of us could seem to let go. Most fights aggravate when issues of the past start becoming the main topic instead of what started it. So what is it? that 'something'? Could it be the wound from the breakup 5years ago that has not healed, could it be the deepen hole from the lost of our loved ones that hasn't been filled, could it be that guilt for not being there for your friend's funeral or that anger why you could never match your parent's expectations. So many times we beat ourselves up for not being able to fulfill the expectations of our family or our bosses and we start to blame ourselves for being incapable when, we probably already tried learning how to use the washing machine a thousand times or the fax machine a million and one time.
But for the love of God, we're not perfect! So, just let it go! It's time to heal, time to let go, time to forgive yourself. Nobody needs you to carry the world on your shoulders (well, unless you're The Almighty), so just live with it! You don't have to be who you're not, you don't have to be somebody else cause everyone's taken, you don't have to compare cause everyone's different, if you can't use the washing machine use your God given hands! Moving forward could never be as easy as saying it if we couldn't let the past be in the past. Hearts cannot be healed or filled if we continue to hurt and blame ourselves for the things we can't change anymore.
If you didn't love, love now. If you didn't give, give now. If you were never there, be there now.
A friend of mine once told me, "The only person in this world who can make you happy, is you.". So we may not be able to travel around the world for a year like Julia Roberts in Eat Pray Love and find a beady-eye beard man calling you "groceries" in India teaching you to learn to forgive yourself ( i did cry at the part where he was talking about his son whom he did not ran into when he was drunk), we need to, you need to, i need to, forgive.Forgive for what i did and did not do. Accept what i have and have not. Be at peace with being me. That, is the life to contentment.
But then again, it's always easier said than done. |
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